This was me before I got pregnant with Alfie. I think you'll agree I had to have had some bollocks to do this shoot and this was pretty "tame" for me. I've done a lot of implied nude, boudoir and other such shoots with different photographers...Once upon a time I had bollocks, gumption, guts...whatever you want to call it...I had confidence.
I want to feel like this again, I don't mean have the exact same figure again 'cause lets face it after having a baby your figure is never the same again. Up until a couple of weeks ago apart from a couple of "niggles" I still felt like I had the bollocks to do this again. I even talked about doing another "one off" shoot...and now? Now I can't seem to find the confidence to even TALK to some people or to ask a question never mind taking my bloody kit off for a couple of hours in front of a camera!
Once upon a time, I had confidence. Then one day, it decided to run away and play a long game of hide and seek. Let me know if you happen to see it won't you? I quite liked having gumption.
Amy,
ReplyDeleteYou are still the beautiful person that's in the photo. I completely understand that confidence can get the better of you at times but I'm sure that you will find it again. In fact, I know you will!
J xxx